Monday, October 26, 2009

C0nfession oF a br0ken-hearted

Title : Bedtime st0ry
Emoti0n : Stabil & happy
Music : Akon ft o'donis (What you got)

St0ry tale :

This is a confession of a br0ken hearted who has already found a purpose in his life. Bersahaja aku ingin bercerita disaat aku keb0sanan sambil melayan r0kok murah berjenama 'League' dan dibuai lagu2 club yang indah..

5 months ag0...(babak dalam kereta waja)

*Aku: hon, please dont do this to me..Why u keep on ignoring me
*H0ney: huh..come on, let me go and do whatever u wanna do with ur life
*Aku: please hon..I beg u..Look at me!..can't u c that I'm suffer right n0w..Please hon..Why u suddenly become like this..Because of dat guy yg u baru knal for few months, u dumped me and u make me hurt so much..how could u do dis to me..

(sambil air mata mencurah2 di pipi yang kini telah kehilangan lemaknya disebabkan terlalu berduka..)

*Honey: Whatever

(matanya langsung xmemandang aku...sambil tersenyum sinis menganggap aku terlalu murah & hina)

*Aku: Tolong la..utk kali ni je..I beg for ur apology for whatever i've done..Jangan buat mcm ni hon..we have share lots of memory together..Please honey..Just pretend that u still love me..please, just for few more months..please..

(aku yg hina ni masih lgi menangis2 mcm kanak2 pmpuan yg kehilangan anak patungnya)

*Honey: No, we dont share lots of memory together..stop crying..it's annoying..Okay, i will be with u for few more months..I promise..and I still love u..

Byk lagi perbualan masa tu tapi malas aku nk describe lebih2...Masa tu aku bsyukur sgt2 sbb aku diberi peluang kedua...Air muka mula berseri2 mnampakkan yg aku kembali bahagia....


few days later (babak dlm telefon bimbit)

*Aku: hon, kt mana? bukan nk balik kL ke ari ni?
*Honey: emm...yup
*Aku: wat time gerak? wit who?
*Honey: mlm..xyah tanya la ngn sapa..u dont have to knw
*Aku: ok then..i'll drive for u k..lagipun xkan nk drive sorg mlm2 buta..
*Honey: no need la...i can take care of myself
*Aku: its okay..I just drive for u and then when we reach kL i'll take d bus and go straight back to ktn..
*Honey: I say no need no need la..cant you understand!!(nada suara yg tinggi)
*Aku: Napa ni hon, I did somethig wrong?..please dont act like this...I just wanna make sure u're okay...After we reach kL u dont have to care bout me anymore..I will just take d bus and come back here..
*Honey: ok, mcm ni la...aku pg kL ngn ******..He will drive for me..u dont have to care..mind ur own business...
*Aku: but u promise me that u will still be with me and come back to what we r b4..
*Honey: ok look..aku ckp mcm tu sebab aku kesiankn ko..aku xpnah maksudkan apa yg aku ckp masa tu....
*Aku: what..!...??......kaku...tergamam.....

~air mata mula meleleh dipipi utk kali kedua, kali ni diikuti ngn hati yg cukup sebak..hanya Tuhan shja yg tahu peraaanku masa tu..Ya Rabbii...aku bagaikan hilang arah..sanggup dia mempermainkan aku setelah aku buat mcm2 utk dia..Aku igtkan dia ikhlas dengan kata2 nya...sanggup dia tipu aku semata2 kerana dat one guy yg dia baru kenal yg mmg xbplejaran, muka xde pakej & cuma pandai bermain dengan kata2 manis ala2 bahasa terengganunya..

*Honey: Dia lagi mulia dari ko..aku selesa bila bersama dengannya....

~tutttttttt......she hang up d ph0ne....aku ph0ne berkali2 tpi no answer...almost 100 times tpi still no answer..tonnes of messages aku hntar..still no answer...Masa tu la aku btul2 hilang akal mcm lakhnat...siap beli panadol 50 biji...mnangis2 mcm haram..mber2 aku dtg bilik and cool me d0wn...the situation goes for almost 7 months already n0w and eventhough aku masih teringat2 dia, tapi aku perlu hntikan smua 2...its crap....she had a better life n0w..she's happy and that's wat I want right..?...

~There's a lot of stories before that thing happened....byk kontroversi...etc2...tapi malas aku nk cerita lebih2...FaRRkkkk all of that..I do not bother anymore..its been so long already and I almost forgot about u..dats wat u want right..so be it...

~What I wanna say here is that, sometimes people change easily when they met someone new and make them smile...they forgot that, there's some0ne who always care about them every single day...susah@senang.always together with them...and its not new...and from this occasion, I've learned a lot of things...Its the value of life...Just dont give too much hope on relationship..dont give evertg to it..keep some of it to urself..so that, when this thing comes 2 u, u still can survive and value ur life...


*p/s: dont worry, aku xemo pun msa posting entry ni..just wanna share..malu??..naahh...go to hell with malu...its the experiences & value that I wanna share..right now, aku bersyukur dengan life aku...I'm happy...Thanks to d person who give me hope..and chill me up.....

*p/s: lets enjoy in d club baby...lalallalaa....


just me:

rAy jR...@..Aliff

32 comments:

Ejay said...

umang mak aih...

mcm script drama dah aku baca
dan aku sgt pelik kenapa aku bley baca dr awal smpai abis...
heh

nasib baik la ada jugak benda aku bley learn from this...

p.s : sesungguhnya aku tak minat drama swasta

Miss Penny said...
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Miss Penny said...

Do you know how much I like your post this time? A LOT, MAN! Yeah!! Gimme FIVE! Why should 'malu'? It's all about experiences. D best teacher!

I've been in this situation. Two times being two timing just because he met someone new. D one that could make he MELTS!! Fuh... Things happened. I am happy with another person now.

I'm not hoping much in a relationship anymore. I just give what I think he should got. And d rest? I keep it all to myself. Play safe ;p

Dear Ray,
There must b a reason behind all these. And I believe, God keep d best for you. Maybe d timing hasn't come yet. Time will heal your pain. May take some time, but you will b alright :)

Dino Prince said...

dino to ray : ouh..ok.. berubah lebih baik..so lupakan semuanya k.. tgok aku.. ape yg aku nak xdpt..so aku berubah la..jgn cepat putus asa k..

hafizzuan said...

dude, just get over it and start a brand new day..u have to move on..there's a huge opprtunities and chances out there waiting for u..

Anonymous said...

u know what.. when i ask other fren who dumped their boyfriend... most of them told me tat their bf didnt appreciate them... there're many things and acts shows tat we didnt appreciate ppl u know... flashback again... wat hv u done to her... myb u ignored her when she need u... myb u didnt realize dat... im wondering wheather u r like dat... but myb its not all ur fault... i dunno hows ur ex behave like but once they ignored their bf cz of other guy, it shows us tat she think tat dat guy is better than u... so, anything happen, just let it be... myb god wana giv u a better prson so tat u'll be more happy... so, chill ya... n sory cz my cmment is too honest... n sory if im tlkin wrong... but im talkin on behalf of wat every girls thinkin... thats all... =) chill bro...

KaYdEnZ said...

woww....
how i wish i can get a guy like u...
evn tho my heart's crying for love rite now... :"(
*so in love*
huhu..chilled out dear...
she's not worth it to ur love..
u deserve sum1 else bttr n appreciates u more...

Dino Prince said...

dino - hehehe.. ramai gak nak kat ko yek..so lupakan yg lama..ambik yg nak kt ko sudah..xyah pilih bulu sgt..lebih baik ambik yg gilakan kaw dr ambik yg dumb ko..

~OcEaNuS~ said...

hey anon, u dont talk on behalf of wut every girls thinking. EVERY is a strong word, my english teacher once said, and i believe in it untill now. u dont talk on behalf of me at least. girls cheat for many reasons some simply bcos they r a bitch. lol. just like guys. except they dont have have bitch in dictionary to describe 'em. a JERK isnt cool enuff.
but hey, we r not here to label people.
7 months is a fucking long time ray! doesnt matter who did the shitty things out of who. sorry, this time, im just against ur "manly instict" to stay broken n shattered.
u wrote ur expression here invites an open debate n it released the hidden debater out of my closet.

is all i have to say.
just like sushi, some like it RAW.

Anonymous said...

ok... oceanus... to make it simple, just change the words EVERY to 'most of it excluding OCEANUS'... simple rite? u r too 'cliche' (dunno how to spell it) la dear... haha...

rAy jR...@...Aliff said...

ejay-

hah..ko xtahu aku berbakat bwat script..haha...klw ko buat drama t ko panggil aku jd script writer..aku buat yg paling pwer pnya..haha

rAy jR...@...Aliff said...

miss penny-

owh really?...five 2 u 2..hehe...emm, penny, dat post i did not karang it myself..not a fake drama script..but fr0m my experiences..

yup..i dont gve so much in relationship anymre..not 4 d tme being..anyway, d0nt wry..i am so much fun with my life now..

and i dont think so i wanna get invole with s0me m0re relationship 4 d tme being...atleast not 4 now...

maybe...G0d just want me 2 be al0ne and think about s0me other things which is much m0re important..

and btw, i'm n0t being so jiwang lately..i'm not a jiwang guy..but i just wish dat i could d0 all of this long tme ag0..but its to0 late...

rAy jR...@...Aliff said...

din0-

aku dh move on dh ni..aku sje nk post cter ni...hehe...atleast i d0nt keep it anymre...

rAy jR...@...Aliff said...

haffizzuan-

thank u brader..i am moving on rgt n0w...and i realize dat, thre's a big oppurtunity 4 me waiting out here...i just did not notice it sometimes...

but hey, look who's comin...mr aliff is rising ab0ve..hehehe..

aku bukan mat bunga br0...aku xske bjiwang2..keadaan wat aku jd mat bunga utk smntara waktu..hahaha

rAy jR...@...Aliff said...

anynomous-

yup..i believe so..i d0nt think i'm a good guy...i dont think i appreciate d relationship b4...when dis thing happened to me then..i realize how stupid i am...and i admit it i'm not a good one..

maybe, i should always look into d bright sight...mybe i shouldn't do dis 2 her..but unfrtnately its just too late,...thre's no turning back..

as long as she's happy..then i'll be happy too...seriously i will let her happy with her life...

and i will just eventually end up living my life right now and pretend to be wit some0ne else...

rAy jR...@...Aliff said...

kaydenz-

how u wish 2 get a guy like me??...no2...dont do dat...pple wont leave me if i'm d type of a guy who appreciate relationship...i'm just, not good enough 2 b in dis kind of relationship...

br0ken hearted?...n0 dear..dont be br0ken...its still too young..yup, as u said...chill....lalalala

rAy jR...@...Aliff said...

oceanus-

7 months was a long run huh??..haha..yeah..i bet i do..d0nt wry dear...i'm okay n0w...i d0nt knw why suddenly..but yeah..i am fuckin okay...

maybe bc0z i've been mourning myself for such a long tme already..well, its d tme 2 move on isn't it..

eventhough s0metimes she keep on c0min and make my day fill with darkness again..dat i cant deny...
but i have 2 frget her in order 2 get s0me new refreshment...

lalala

~OcEaNuS~ said...

hey anon, cliche is not me.haha.
i go against the flow. well, most of the time.

and ray, 7 months is considered looong enuff in dogs year.as a matter of fact, a dog matures within the period.' but yes2, we r not animals..we r human, bla2..
but u said ur better, good for ya.

promise u this is my final comment on this kind of post, dont worry.
i can feel that if i keep on bothering myself on this issue (not that i do),i can turn out to be a real bitch. LOLz.

p.s i just hate broken hearted shitz. NOT bcos i dont have heart.

Daisy said...

Yeah, thats my friend!! I Like see you be more mature, maybe. hehehe. and im happy read your blog. I just curious about u. Why? i dnt have the answer right now. As a friend, just keep it as ur lesson. maybe i can understand ur feeling cz my ex also be like ur ex have done. i've take 1 year and half to forget him. and now, im totally forgot him. owh, its hurt, really2 hurt!!! But i feel very happy with my life cz i had a lot people to love and care me especially my family. When i thnk about it, i will said, " how stupid i am cz cry and sad for him". bak kate melayu, " bdoh nye la..menangis sbb jantan xgune tu!!" hahhaa. well ray, hope u can share another story for us soon. :-)

Anonymous said...

yes... that's wat you hv to do ray... but pretending to be wif sumone else is not a good idea i think... but if u refer to ur lappy then its ok la... hehe... cz u can do anythin dat u want wif it... sure u'll be happy... i swear... haha...

Anonymous said...

forgot to say, don't regret wif da past thing... evrybody did mistake... n we learn from it... go chill... n make a new life... sure u'll be happy... trust me... =)

chotz said...

i just get a time to LEAVE my comment nih...

adeh....makan panadol 50 bijik? that harsh la, but xterrer lagi tu kot...

huhuhuhu

xpe...nanti kalu ada rezeki kita meet up...i can show u what ive done....bukan bangga, but putus cinta ni boleh buat manusia gila...betul x? pe2pon...hope ko happy la ngan sape pon ngan ko skg ni...n im sure dia pon happy dapat ko gak...

rAy jR...@...Aliff said...

oceanus-

owh yeah..hehe...i hope so that this br0ken hearted thingy would b d last..hehehe...

but u kn0w wat?...u're really an inspiring writer...well, atleast i think s0..lalala....n0t a c0mplement, just me talking crap...oh dear...hahaha

rAy jR...@...Aliff said...

daisy-

u like me lookin more matured?..ehem..hahaha...am i not matured en0ugh 4 u?...i think i'm just a kid on d next d0or searching 4 his s0ul..hahaha...

yup, wasnt easy..but, as d tme pass by, we'll be okay...lalala...

rAy jR...@...Aliff said...

anym-

yes...always be my baby..hahaha..lalalala....d0nt wry, i have reas0n to b happy n0w...am i??...emmm....lalalala.....

my lappy@baby?.....sure i l0ve her...and i d0nt pretend to b with s0meone else ryte n0w c0z i d0 ave my baby...dat is d m0st important thing...hehehe....

always stay c0nnected...

rAy jR...@...Aliff said...

ch0tz-

l0ng since i have u in my bl0g...are u sure u're okay??...c0z i thought u might lost s0mewhre in d middle...

owh th0se pnad0l?...that was just d bginning dear...u haven't seen d rest..bl00d....scars...etc2...seriously...

yeah sure...just let me kn0w when is d right tme??...i thought u're g0in somwhre dis wkend..?..are u?...ave a nice hlday then...be as naughty as u can..hahahha...

owh yeah..i'm just hppy 2 b with my baby...(why am i keep talking bout my baby recently?)...OMG, i'm s0 goin nuts...hahaha...anyway ch0tz, aku ikhlas nie..kakaka..seyes..

arianna alhaddad said...

u don't need to malu coz i yakin ramai lagi yg mengalami benda yg sama mcm u. cuma most of em taknak share je. i tabik u sudi share all this. mmg sedih baca story u. but what goes around will come around. life must goes on. and i sure u deserve a better girl. forget d past. lets chill. ;)

rAy jR...@...Aliff said...

arianna-

hehe..thnks 4 dat...kdg2 malu jgak..haha...tp, hell i care...hehe...

frgeting d past and start a new beginning...lets chill...hehe

Anonymous said...

ok ray.. i se tat u bcm calmer than b4.. so ok la.. rmmbr tis thing.. god oweyz wat his slave the best.. so what did he 'test' u, don't regret it.. n don't cry bcz of it.. ok? next week my rum8 plan to go out wif abe 4 da last time b4 he leaves us 4 LI... wana join us?

ray jr said...

anym-

owh yeah..im s0 okay n0w....hehehe..

Primadona69 said...

biase ar tu..
org x penah nak hargai pe yg dia ada...
tp bl satu hari...
dia kehilangan sesuatu yg berharga tu..
baru dia nak nyesal...
dan ko..
sabar jela...
:)
tp tahniah ler..
lps ko telan 50 bijik panadol tu...
ko telah dilantik sbg duta panadol semalysia...
;p

lumut said...

i read chotz'comment here...
and i've met chotz last year and he shared something bout his life...and he showed me the stupid thing that he had done...aisshh chotz sebbek idop lagi..

and this....

~What I wanna say here is that, sometimes people change easily when they met someone new and make them smile...they forgot that, there's some0ne who always care about them every single day...susah@senang.always together with them...and its not new...and from this occasion, I've learned a lot of things...Its the value of life...Just dont give too much hope on relationship..dont give evertg to it..keep some of it to urself..so that, when this thing comes 2 u, u still can survive and value ur life...

aku setuju.